I will be auditioning in 17 days time. It will come up quickly. I have two monologues picked out and ready for memorization. I am reading a book on how to audition. I am preparing myself, to sell myself.

Which makes my little mind go. Since I am selling myself, does that make me a prostitute? Am I whoring myself? I’ve heard it said that in some languages the word for actress and whore are the same.  I don’t know if it’s true. But I have to grin.

I don’t feel dirty. If anything I am getting excited (not that way) and anxious for the climax of my upcoming event.

But why is it that the word for actress and whore would be (might be) the same in some languages?  What is so wrong with acting that our society looks down upon it unless you are making Brangelia money?  If I have enough to pay my bills and take care of my family, I will be happy with that. And it won’t be any less respectful from my previous job. Which is also looked down upon by some sections of our society.

*sigh* I guess I’m just a glutton for punishment. Shoulda been a doctor.